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September 13, 2007
Old Blogs Never Die...
...they just stay the same...and stay the same...and stay the same, and never get updated. Sometimes this seems to happen with single folk's blogs when they get a significant other or get married. Perhaps it is that some of their reasons or needs to blog have been fulfilled to a degree, which is both somewhat sad and natural. Perhaps it is also simply a matter of time. Perhaps such blogs can turn a corner and become something new which they had never before. Though, I would like to believe that a blog, like one's character, which though admittedly can be somewhat different in different contexts, would stay more or less the same in its emphases and themes no matter what one's life looked like at the time. But, perhaps that is unrealistic.
Well, my blog has been dormant for a while, too, and not, alas, because I have significanized another nor in turn been significanized by another, unless that other is a seminary. But nonetheless that is the reason why there have been fewer posts on here for a while. So, I thought I would write a brief reflection on some of the changes I am going through at the very least.
For those of you who do not know, I have begun a Master's of Divinity degree at Covenant Theological Seminary, which has nothing to do with making fluffy fudge or anything like, but which is the degree which pastors need to get in my denomination. So, do I want to be a pastor? Well, no, not in the short term, though I have my suspicions that somewhere down the road, sometime in the future.... In the meantime, though, I want to get a degree so that I might teach and write more meaningfully and knowledgeably from a Christian perspective on issues of faith and culture. Yeah, it's kind of amorphous, but that is all I know for now.
Seminary is hard. I am not sure what I was expecting, but learning Greek, in and of itself, is a monumental challenge, and then I have three other classes as well. Moreover, I am learning not to be lazy and not to procrastinate, which are habits that are so hard to unlearn. In addition to the study, I am working 21 hours here and teaching a Mythology class on Monday nights. So, I am legitimately busy.
Still, I really have nothing to complain about. There are people with far busier schedules than mine, some of whom also have families for whom to care. And also all my needs are being met so well.
And, you know what, aside from the busy-ness there is a sense that the restlessness and discontent that has characterized my life for a while has significantly diminished. I know it is early, and my cautious side says to wait before I make any bold pronouncements, but I am not going to listen to that cautious side just now and say that I am thankful that I have a sense that I am currently doing what I am meant to be doing. And that feels pretty good. I have not and will not arrive at perfection of effort or achievement, but it feels good to have a renewed zeal, no perhaps even a totally new zeal, to do my school work and career work well and with care.
And, so, what does that mean for The Dassler Effect and its Facebook mirror? Well, I may not post as often, but I am not going to let it go quietly into the night. Some day soon, I know, my camera will whisper in my ear "Hey, did you see those leaves against the sky" or a line of verse will trip across my mind, or, yes, something interesting might pop out of my studies, and, well, I will do my darndest to listen to those significant others as well and share the love.
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I'll miss your frequent posting, but I'm thankful you chose to pursue the seminary route! Yay for vocational assurance! Speaking of missing your presence, we missed you at tutoring-I got eaten alive-several of those "chess" moments (tee hee).
Before I left, Mark gave me one of those "It's not easy, but SO worth it" pep-talks. It helped, although, I still cried when I got home.
Posted by: Heidi Vincent at September 14, 2007 10:08 AM
enjoyed reading your update, neil. your usage of significanized made me laugh. on a more serious note, it's exciting that you have a sense that you are doing what you are meant to be doing.
Posted by: meg n. at September 14, 2007 4:31 PM
Heidi, it was checkers not chess, no? Which is more the pity because "chess moments" rolls off the tongue so much nicer than "checkers moments," so "chess moments" it is. Who would have known the rules to checkers could be so culturally conditioned? Though, I should have, card games and the like vary all the time.
Yes, I am sorry, most of the time, to not be able to come to tutoring, but it really would be an impossibility just now. Sorry, for the incidents that made you go home and cry. No good. I can totally understand that feeling. Still, I suppose Mark is right, no? I am liking the use of the "no?" at the end of sentences just now. Very european, no?
Thanks, Meg. I found that funny too, even if I did write it myself. And, yes, that feeling is pretty good.
Posted by: Neil E. Das at September 14, 2007 5:15 PM
